Amazing!

It is amazing to me.

I had about two weeks of minimal pain. I had pain in joints, neck pain, and back pain. I have had enough pain to notice and be bothered by it, but the pain was not as bad as it had been. This morning I woke up feeling like I have bruises from shoulders to feet. My arms, wrists, fingers, back-upper and lower, legs back and front in some places, and even the soles of my feet all hurt. It is like I was in an accident last night. It amazes me!

I am not positive yet, I have not had a diagnosis--my appointments are in October, but all arrows point to Fibromyalgia or chronic lymes. Why all of a sudden did my body decide to hurt all over today? Maybe I did too much yesterday. All morning I was organizing--mostly sitting and organizing, definitley some walking around and lifting, but not an abnormal amount, just enough for a normal person to have done some light work around the house. It truly amazes me that this is the turn my life has taken. Mono, lymes, miscarriage and then a down hill turn that leads to where I am now. It is amazing!

Why in the world do I keep using the word amazing? Is it because I am dumbfounded by all that has happened over the past two years to my body? Is it because I can't believe my body would turn against me in this way? Or is it because I am amazed every day how God gets me through in spite of it all---yes that is it.

No matter what he is good. He gave me an excellent husband who understands my pain, and the ability to take one day at a time. I am amazed by his goodness, mercy, and grace he extends to me each and everyday.  He can calm the storm with a word or by saying nothing at all. He is in charge of my life and for that I am thankful. I am thankful that I have perfect peace through him.

He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.